Byeeeeee
I truly hope everyone gets a chance to relax and breathe over the holidays. Don't take life so seriously and try to smile more. The New Year's going to be fab!
 
 
					  			  
					  Les gens qui ne rient jamais ne sont pas des gens sérieux
 
 
					  			  
					   
 
					  			  
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					   I checked my watch and swore under my breath. Looking back at the timetable, the empty road and my watch again, it was clear the bus I'd wanted had been and gone two minutes earlier. At that time of night, the next wouldn't be along for another half an hour.
I checked my watch and swore under my breath. Looking back at the timetable, the empty road and my watch again, it was clear the bus I'd wanted had been and gone two minutes earlier. At that time of night, the next wouldn't be along for another half an hour.Labels: Christmas, Homelessness, Warsaw
 
 
					  			  
					  
 
 
					  			  
					  One night years ago, awoken, or so I thought, from an eerie dream, I pushed the covers away and padded out of my room in my bare feet to find a parent. I came across my Dad first and seeing the look on his face, tried to persuade him I wasn’t up to my old sleepwalking tricks.
‘It’s this dream’ I started, trying to break through the confusion it had left me with. ‘I know this has got to, I mean it will be strange, for you I mean’ I continued, annoyed with myself for such a poor opening. I tried again, ‘I’m not asleep’ I said firmly, as, steered by his hand on my shoulder, I found myself being led back to my room.
We stopped and again I tried to explain what I felt I needed to tell him. There was something the dream had left me with that had to be expressed, and Dad was the one who had to hear it, so why couldn’t I find the words? ‘I just have to tell you this thing, then I’ll go back to bed’ I promised, as we sat side by side. ‘Ok, go ahead’ he encouraged and I struggled with the thoughts swirling around my head. ‘It was odd, but now, but I guess someone made it, and then I didn't understand, and I know this won’t make sense but maybe in the morning I can explain better.’
The sense that I had to tell him something was still strong in my mind, but I could see myself from his perspective, the wild hair and half-closed eyes. I started shivering in my nightgown and took myself back to bed. He didn’t think I would remember but the following morning I could still feel the urgency with which I had tried to relay my message, although I no longer had any idea of what that message could have been.
It’s still like that sometimes, although I’ve long since given up sleepwalking. Some days I get the feeling that there’s plenty I need to get across, plenty that needs to be said and listened to. I don’t know how to say it and even if I did I might not be taken seriously, dismissed as the vague imaginings of a girl with wild hair and sleep in her eyes.
 
 
					  			  
					   It went by in a flash, but it was a good weekend. They always are in Bonn.
It went by in a flash, but it was a good weekend. They always are in Bonn. Bits I was less happy with included shouting out 'NAZI!' in a sleepy Ahr valley restaurant, something I repeated a surprising number of times before my hand flew to my mouth with the sudden realisation. Payback for my thoughtlessness was scalding my hand so that I had to walk by the Rhine with an ice pack. The whole catching the plane at 1pm on a Sunday thing was a little annoying too. I guess Germanwings pilots like to avoid landing in the dark or something.
Bits I was less happy with included shouting out 'NAZI!' in a sleepy Ahr valley restaurant, something I repeated a surprising number of times before my hand flew to my mouth with the sudden realisation. Payback for my thoughtlessness was scalding my hand so that I had to walk by the Rhine with an ice pack. The whole catching the plane at 1pm on a Sunday thing was a little annoying too. I guess Germanwings pilots like to avoid landing in the dark or something. 
 
					  			  
					   
 
					  			  
					  